I don't want to live in this world anymore. Life is so boring and cruel. I have no reason to live or die. I just feel like a leaf getting moved around by the wind. My unending suffering keeps continuing without my control. I am not writing this to gain attention to myself this is just for proofing I existed in somewhere, sometime so I can keep feeling like I did something even I did not. So ignore me, I don't seek help or salvation anyway.